God, in all His Wisdom...

This summer has been an interesting and explosive time for our family. We have recently discovered that our daughter is afflicted with Child Onset Bi-Polar disorder. We have been given a front row seat or sometimes a spot in the ring as our daughter comes completely unglued and explosively becomes like another person. Those of you reading this post that know someone who has been diagnosed with this disease knows that this does not just go away, clear up, nor can it be cured. Our daughter and our family will deal with this for the rest of our lives. I recently have thought to myself, "Why us, God?"

As I question God, I think about all the unpredictable behavior, manic episodes, and mania to come, and I start to feel a lot of anxiety and despair. It is in the midst of this developing challenge that I can already see that I have not been injured by this, but rather I have been edified and taught about my own shortcomings and talents. I have learned that I have infinite love for this daughter that often curses me in a fit of rage. I have learned that discussing our feelings calmly and quietly can do far more benefit that raising my voice or hand in anger. I have learned that i have a lot to learn and that I need to be open and receptive to that teaching. For whatever reason, God, in all His Wisdom, has decided that this struggle we now face is the best way to teach us about love, compassion, and wisdom.

I think I ought to go pray...